Silent Distractions

2010-11-08T05:49:00.000-08:00

Hey yall'!!!

I've revived my blog like finally~ It's been so long since I last used blogspot. ONE thing I realised while I was on a hiatus journey from blogspot, I found that other blog sites aren't suitable with me~ I didn't know how to operate them but as for blogspot, I know how the operational system works like. Fine, I won't update much because my eyes are tired from crying~ Damn dry~ SO I think I will head off to bed first~ Wake up in the morning then charge my CUBE and HP~ Shall head off to school at 6:50am~ Nights~

2010-03-01T20:22:00.000-08:00

What's up people!!!

Now I'n currently in the computer lab rotting despite of the fact that I have to actually discuss on the current topic that my group chose...Frankly speaking I'm currently at lost on what to do.Well,I shall go before HASNAH actually gets back and sees me here blogging...

Rafidah

2010-03-01T04:58:00.000-08:00

What's up people?

Another post worth of my nonsense filled ranting...This post was posted on the night of first march twenty ten at nine thirty...Today went by slowly...Too slowly...Fought with brother early in the morning...Skipped school due to fever...Fever getting worse...Seriously not my day...Worse come to worse scenarios is that i'm going to have a much higher fever tomorrow...I don't know why but my mind is not in the right state of mind...Maybe due to fever...Well...I shall give my mama a call before heading for the sack...Good night people who even bother to read my pathetic filled with nonsense ranting blog...

2010-02-26T21:45:00.000-08:00

What's up people??

I did mentioned to you people about me heading to BATAM right?At least i thought i did...My dad cancelled my trip..Cool huh?So yea...Instead of actually having fun there...I kind of rot at home doing nothing apart from rotting my youth off...Did i also mentioned about the fact that I actually went off to school for the sake of being told to report to school he you're not going for the trip...?I was lucky that sha actually answered my call on time...Forget it...

Now i'm supposingly in the bus headed towards BEDOK...I'm blogging at two in the afternoon of saturday,twenty-seventh of february...Meeting my cousins later on at the interchange...Shall have loads to talk about...I think..

2010-02-23T15:48:00.000-08:00

What's up people?

Sorry for the no post yesterday....Well the story goes like this...I think i Blogged like am essay but my butterfingers caused me a post lost...Thus,i beca lazy to type another one...As you guys should know...I can't blog using a computer therefor my only substitute is my trustworthy handset...Great...

The feeling is becoming worse...I don't think i can deny it...The fact that I Nur Rafidah loves him can no longer be denied...But now...Its too late...However I still have a small hope...The chances of him surviving is about 20%...Even if he does...He'll become a vegetable...I'll be able to be with him...But its like talking to a wall...He won't be able to do anything...Just lie down on the bed and staying alive with the help of a life support machine...Oh gawd...Please help him survive...You're the only one that I know of that could make miracles happen...Even if he does survive but doesn't remember me...I don't mind...Oh gawd...You have the ability to give and take life away...I just~~

2010-02-22T05:54:00.000-08:00

Anyeong Haseyo!!!

I feel great...Like i mentioned...Never follow the blog's timing..I'm now blogging at ten on the night of twenty second FEBRUARY...Life had been great...A lesson that i learnt the hard way recently is what ever bad stuff that we ever did have its own consequences...Boy...Did my consequences left a deep scar in my mind...The pain burned and embossed itself in my mind...

Anyway...I seriously don't get what teenagers nowadays are thinking...So far...The weirdest one i know was an idiot who drank a mixture of weird stuff...Got himself hospitalised for doing so...Whereas others put on a two sided mask..The latest one that i've seen and heard...Jumped to conclusions without finding out the facts and the myth...Forget it...As long as you don't mention my name in anything that you say...I don't give a damn of what was going no...I'm neutral...I look from a point of view..In my opinion...Both parties are wrong...Shall continue in another post another time...SLEEPY!!!

2010-02-20T21:28:00.000-08:00

What's up people?

I'm down these days.There's just a burden that i want to get rid of...I brought it upon myself but i seriously want to get rid of it...I went through a very stress period hence i kind of mistook care of my hair and now there's dreads...I can't seem to get rid of it...Worse situation i can think of is to get a total haircut...Yes...You're thinking of what i'm thinking...An army man look...Which girl wants huh?I got busted yesterday...My mum caught sight of it...It kind of added to my depression...You could say that alright...The way i let her down made me even more depressed...She wanted to help me but i don't knowla...Its worst that my aunt and her hubby and baby is living there...Great huh?I just hope that they're out...Got to go..

Please help me rid of these dread so i could move on..

2010-02-18T17:30:00.000-08:00

Continue from the previous post..Don't have to ask why alright...The flaws of blogging using mobile...

Alright where was i?Right...We went to orchard centre and camwhored...The escalators were long and slow hence we actually camwhored along the way to the rooftop...Firdaus is damn photogenic...I had my share...We also took pictures on the walkway beside orchard ion..The memory with them shall be kept with me forever...

Before we actually started to camwhore..We accompanied Sha to get her pay...All these ended at around 5 coming to 6...We took the red line only difference was that we headed in the different directions...Me and Sha headed towards Marina whereas Junaid,Divya and Firdaus headed towards jurong east...Sha stopped at City Hall...Bid goodbye and continued my journey home..

Reached home and showered...Felt relieved that i could finally rest...My legs were throbbing...The experience was great...I hope we could continue doing these type of things together...Well got to go..Got to study...

2010-02-18T17:16:00.000-08:00

Anyeong Haseyo!

As usual,I'm in school...Blogging because of the unusual amount i have during lesson...Miss Fun ain't going to start her lecture any sooner from the looks of things...

Yesterday went perfectly.The only thing that made me almost explode was that,they FUCKING showed me their attitude...What the hell...I wasn't involved in whatever you guys were in...I'm switzerland yet you bitches showed me your attitude...Forget it...You guys want to show me attitude...Alright...I'll make sure your life becomes miserable in school...So miserable to the max that you guys might even want to think again if you want to show me that bitchy attitude of yours...Or maybe,i should just ignore..There kind of people are just plain immature...

On the lighter side,i think i found my own group of friends'...The pan pacific hotel was perfect...I loved the ambience...After the visit,Mrs JUNAID,Firdaus,Shawindah,Divya and me walked around orchard...I kind of bonded with them...Headed off to orchard centre and camwhored...

2010-02-17T17:49:00.000-08:00

What's up people?

Well,whoever read my blog should watch a video on youTube..Not a video about me but about an orange...An annoying orange...It made me laugh at first but later,i found it irritating to the max...Just type annoying orange...

I'm in school of course...don't follow the timing from the post..It's pathetic to the max...Now is 10am on thursday 18th of february 2010...Waiting for the test to start and then would be having some lesson with my class advisor before heading for pan pacific...

The class condition is getting worse...Seriously speaking,the least they could do was say good morning or for the love of the fucking society...just smile...gawd...it doesn't help the social status...Forget it...Alright...there's one thing i hate the most is not knowing what happened and was scolded...He was admitted to the hospital mainly because he's...Didn't tell me anything about his feelings...i fell for someone else and drank chemicals...Is it my fault???i don't know...i'm just sorry...

2010-02-16T22:19:00.000-08:00

Hello people around the world who even bothered to check out this blog...,

Its been quite some time since i last posted here.Life's just couldn't get any better.Problem brewed here and there.My heart just couldn't be kept still...
(Yes,if you guys were thinking what i think you were thinking,then yes.)

The problems are kind of childish and stupid and the same time...

The class became un-united...
He got admitted to east shore hospital...
Over something stupid...or rather someone...ME...

I feel super guilty...guilty...guilty...guilty...

Someone help me get my feelings right...

2010-02-09T00:11:00.000-08:00

Hello my dear friends whom i adore..

Time flies so fast and i just realised that it's already february..Going to be 14th soon..Valentine..Even a sweet message would make my day..I don't think he exist..It's almost 4 years since i knew him..There's no sign of proof or evidence to actually that could back up what she said about him..

Why would a good looking guy like him have feelings for me..You could say i'm pessimistic but when it comes to love and soul mates,i'd rather set the standard low..

1.i'm not chubby,I AM FAT...
2.i DON'T HAVE looks...

Forget it,i don't feel like talking about it lah..I just hope that what i thought would come true hence this feelings could go away..CONSTRICTING!

2010-02-08T00:16:00.000-08:00

Yo people who ever read my pathetic Blog,

I feel quite lost nowadays..No,not about life and decisions...My life seems like a gentle flow of water...It's about other things..Things that I'm bound to hurt in..It pure pleasure but after it does,it a stab through your heart..I don't know if I should just ride the feeling or just ignore it..What should I do?

2010-02-04T23:25:00.000-08:00

Hey people...

Here I am in the cybercafe blogging yet another nonsensical post..I don't know what's happening to the world.Everyone changes after sometime and over a small matter.Forget it lah..I got no mood to blog..

PS:Bribing would get you no where Biatch!

2010-02-04T01:48:00.000-08:00

What's up people?

LIke finally..My fingers are gently tapping the keys on the keyboard...Haha..I don't know why but nowadays I found it hard to actually go to the Lan Centre to have a minimum of 1 hour leisure.Forget it.I skipped 2 days woth of school due to the terrible backache I had the day before yesterday when I was in school.Well,ther's nothing much to blog actually.I end it off here to watch a few other korean or Japanese Dramas.

2010-02-01T16:48:00.000-08:00

Hola people!

I'm now in the freaking bus,on my way to my campus...Seriously speaking,I don't even know why I'm going to school...Apart from business skills and communication ethics,I don't know why I'm attending school for business mathematics...All we did was revise percentage,statistics and a few other topics that I'm quite good at... Sorry if that sounded as if I'm bragging...

Alright...Truth be told...People asked why i'm never attached...Let me make this clear...First foremost,WHO would want me?Secondly,why would I go around picking up guys?There's ain't no free time..Third,I've yet to find the right person...Lastly,I want to actually focus on my education...Did I make myself clear?I hope so...

Well,I think the clear factor of me not having a boyfriend IS that I have the proportionate shape of an hour glass but maybe bigger...Also,I am NOT good looking...

Adieu...

2010-02-01T00:57:00.000-08:00

Hey people!

Have you guys heard of 'gut' feelings?Well,my gut feelings is that,things would turn out better than i thought...I should be getting a bunch of new friends soon...Also for those who knew me better,should know that the greatest thing i despise is doing a presentation...Yes i can come out with tons of ridiculous ideas but i tend to really shy during presentations...

Babe,if you're reading this,you should know that i feel kind of depressed that my closest of the closest friends are actually kinda avoiding each other...Was the closeness before a fake facade too?I thought by leaving you guys to pursue my dreams would make you guys closer...Was i just a tooth filling that filled the void in between you guys?i don't get it...

Reflect ya...Adieu...

2010-01-29T20:17:00.000-08:00

Hey people!

I'm a one of a kind of a lazy bum aren't I?Now,i'm at Bukit Batok waiting for VICK and VINCE to arrive...I should had gone out at around half part eleven...I still have around half am hour to wait...It's alright...No offence to the people yio lives in the west but maybe due to me getting used to seeing how people actually dresses up in the east...Finds it weird on how people in the west dresses up..

I seriously find it like crap to actually wait for the train and to travel to CCK before changing to the LRT...I don't even know my way around the LRT...The campus itself is way too grand...GRAND...Seriously speaking,it doesn't even look like a school...Or better,an institution...It looks MORE OF a tourism spot...Proper hotel and restaurants...Escalators...Mall like...

Adieu...Half an hour worth of waiting can actually cause me to be brain dead due to boredom...

2010-01-28T02:21:00.000-08:00

Yo people!

What's up?School'd been great...Well today had been fun...Mrt-ed to clementi in the morning and the rest of the hour passed by...The discussion i had with Vincent and Vick went by well...Plenty of ideas...Ended up doing leisure and health...Next week would be the due date...

Umm...I don't know but there's this unknown feeling inside...Constricting...VERY..I hope that it IS NOT what i think it is...

p.s:Saturday out with groupies...BUKIT BATOK...

2010-01-25T04:28:00.000-08:00

Yo...

Man!That sounded dead...Well,school had been a pain in the butt...Frankly speaking,despite of the slack schedule,the events that happened had caused quite a chaos in my life...Hectic would be the perfect word to describe what I'm facing now...

To be frank,I don't remember what i did or happened in the part few days...Well,today went exceptionally well apart from the chaotic event that happened during the team building activities earlier..."Selfish and uncooperative."Nice description huh...Look,if i'm selfish and uncooperative,i wouldn't have participated in the first two games yah..I just wanted to rest and yet was called selfish and uncooperative...Well,those words didn't affect me fully...Suanla...

P.S:Migraine just pisses the shit out of me!

2010-01-18T23:01:00.000-08:00

Peeps!!

Sorry but this blog might be going dusty soon...I won't be updating really soon...

Schedule for the next few weeks...
Archery training
Fund pairing events
School
Weekend Tutoring

adieu!

2010-01-18T01:30:00.000-08:00

Gawd damn...Those people in class are good and bad at the same time...Be an anti social and you're done for...Some people are born shy hence they can't help it if the find it hard to SOCIALISE...Well,if there's somebody who hangs around me during break and between classes,that is not known as anti social...Why don't you people look up the term anti social...

What crap did i just posted?This is what i do when i'm bored....

Adieu...

P.S:I'M very easy to have a crush on somebody hence you should watch out what you say...or DO...

2010-01-17T17:27:00.000-08:00

What's up peeps?

Rafidah in the house!Remember the last post or so i mentioned something about camp?I didn't attend hence i rot at home...Gawd...I feel totally left out...I was so eager to in the night before thus i packed thoroughly...I checked the camp list at least half a dozen times before being satisfied...Like i said bike accident...Initially,the sprain wasn't that bad thus i thought i could attend the camp but no...I became swollen in the morning...So swollen that putting on a small amount of weight caused me to wince in pain...Let's not talk about it...One thing for sure..."NO camp means ROT at home..."

So yeah...As per normal,i'm in school...Blogging...Hope she doesn't kill me for not turning up for the GAWD DAMN camp...

Adieu:-)

2010-01-14T08:26:00.000-08:00

Yo!

My leg's being a *iatch with a capital B...Well,i felt really bad for not being able to turn up for the camp at joo koon...Seriously yah...I dreaded the camp a week ago but now i want to be there...UGH!I am very frustrated yah!

One day she treats me like a friend...The next day,she treats me like a pariah...How cool is that?

Adieu!

2010-01-13T13:11:00.000-08:00

Sup' people!

Fidah isn't in the house currently..'SHE WANTS TO GO FOR HER CAMP IN JOO KOON!What the F-ing shit that I did to deserve a detention from camp?!Let me EMPHASISE ON the word FROM!I can't go for the camp...I want to go...I want to be with my bubbly friends'..Bike accident..-ended up with a swollen + sprained ankle...well..*no mood to blog today...My f-ing ankle makes my concentration go haywire...

F-ING ADIEU

2010-01-12T16:28:00.000-08:00

What's up peeps?

Guess what?I can't believe that people change given a short time...Unbelievable yes but not impossible...She used to be a very decent friend/student but now...After sometime we lost contact,I couldn't believe her life is almost destroyed in most eyes...But to her,her life just began...This post is simply dedicated to her...I hope after she gets married,she takes her studies seriously...Getting a cert is important hence she should focus and do well in her private o level...

Cheerios people!

P.S:No matter what...I'll remember her as who she used to be...A bubbly and cheerful friend whom i could turn to when i'm lonely...

2010-01-12T04:34:00.000-08:00

What's up people?

Fidah IS in the house!Haha...What crap...Well,today was fun...Initially,school was supposed to finish at 5pm...Since the business skills lecturer had something on and didn't managed to attend school,hence school ended at 3pm instead...On the downside of things...I had business studies from 10am to 3pm...That's 5hrs worth of maths...However,since my maths is not that bad i didn't complain...

This thursday,i have to go all the way to JOO KOON and find my way to SINGAPORE DISCOVERY CENTRE...I have camp up till friday night...Like i didn't have enough things on my hands already...Well....Got to go to bed now...School starts at 9am baby...

Cheerios!

2010-01-10T17:36:00.000-08:00

Hey people...

Here I am again...blogging yet another post...I'm currently in school waiting for my first class to begin...*hoping that class would resume normal lessons*Ms Fun would be going through business skills today...Her lesson starts at 10am...

Seriously people...I AM ROTTING!

This should be brought to discussions...Why do people hate tag others?They are often labelled as the *no life* idiots...Seriously,SINGAPORE has this term called "freedom of speech* ever heard of it?People are human beings hence they have their own mind set to form their own opinions about others...However,they GOT no right to spam others' tagboard with nonsensical stuff that put others to anger...
Well,despite of the spamming and stuff...The best way is to read and walk away...

Ah!!!What crap am I posting?!Well,when you got to go,you got to go!

Cheerios!

2010-01-09T04:07:00.000-08:00

Hello people!

Today had been exceptionally fun...i met my sister at changi airport terminal 2 to accompany her study..-at the same time,my dear junior wanted me to help him with his studies...i'm in ite yet i AM still stuck with my secondary work...especially social studies..-haha..-well..-currently at aunt's house watching her baby suck her thumb..-what the hell...she's cute...someday might just get a photo of her..-well cheerios..!

2010-01-07T04:43:00.000-08:00

Hello people!

Music makes me want to move with you...Yesterday's lesson was okay and today was unusual...Ms Fun taught us business skills whereas Ms Lydia went through admin stuff...Mdm Hasnah taught or rather recap with the class about arithmetic calculations...integers and rational or irrational numbers...Seriously,i was freaking out before finding out the topics but afterwards,i found out that there's no algebra whatsoever..-MY HEART WAS SHOOTING FIREWORKS!!

Use bad romance verse one...
Oh~N1 number one x2

N1 number one,
We try very hard,
Always persevere,
And never give up.

Use chorus.

We are the N1,
And we're trying so hard,
Can't you see,
We're giving all we've got.

Repeat verse one.
End with:

Oh~N1 number one.

Toodles people!

2010-01-05T22:47:00.000-08:00

Hello!

Forgive me people for not updating for the past week or so...I've been so busy with school that i found it hard to actually go to the cyber cafe to update..As for those who had of linked,would be linked by me as soon as i find a free period...That would be months later i presume...Haha...Just kidding...You people would be linked as soon as i'm free..

To my dear girlfriends...With me away from you guys despite of us being together for four solid years doesn't mean that we could not be friends...Being in a new school makes me wish that i'm still there with you guys...You guys make my day better than the usual...Yes it's true that i may have found my clique here but it's only for three months before we separate into our own courses...Then the whole make friends thing would begin AGAIN...

AH!!I'm so not good at making this kind of post...Well,what's done is done...What was posted came from the bottom of my heart...Oh yes,my dear babe,i read your blog last night and i'm touched...Thanks...

2009-12-28T22:53:00.000-08:00

Well,I would probably not update for the next few weeks or so..Let me emphasize on the word 'probably'

Well,got to go...da...

PS:Tomorrow would be the day I would be registering as an ITE student..

2009-12-27T23:53:00.001-08:00

Hola,

Let's update...Okay..Did I mention that I actually went out with my other classmates to Mr Ng's crib on the eve of Christmas?His crib was way off in Jelapang.Frankly speaking,I never knew that such a place ever existed in Singapore despite of the fact that my close to far relatives lives there still.Okay,I went met up with Fatin dearie at her home bus-stop and we took 506..Bus-ed to Bukit Batok.Then we took 963 and bus-ed to one of the LRT stations.Took the LRT and LRT-ed to Jelapang.Waited for the rest to arrive.Oi,bukan main lama..Ate,catch up et cetera with Mr Ng.The we,meaning Fatin and me took off at 8.30pm.Wow..Took off at 8.30pm and I reached home at around 11pm.Jelapang to Paya Lebar..Thanks girl for the hug.I really needed it...

Oh yes,I applied for higher Nitec under the Hospitality Operations.I was successful but I would be printing out maybe tomorrow.Yep,I gotta go.I am so ecstatic about the fact that the chips are falling into place.Adieu...

2009-12-20T23:16:00.000-08:00

Hey people...

Like finally..Currently in Lan centre..Haha..I would probably hog onto the computer all day long if I have access to it back at home.I registered for the Direct Entry to Higher Nitec...Hospitality Operations...Form teacher looked as if she was very disappointed when I actually told her that my decision was final...Well,my results were as follows:

English Two
Combined Humanities Three
Mathematics Four
Science Four
Food and Nutrition Three
Principles of Account Four
Malay Two
Malay Oral Merit

That's all right???Well,in total,following the EMB3 system,I got 14.I qualified for the higher Nitec in ITE...Well,got to go..I only have 3 hrs...

PS:Should I open up a private blog???

2009-12-18T08:22:00.000-08:00

Halooo!

I believed it was fault,
But i'm happy with my result...

The two line poem probably told u guys what this post would be about...Yeap!My results were up earlier today...No kidding about the stress before the release...O-M-G...Before the release,I found out that there was and outstanding amount of $24 for my school fees...The pressure instantly went up.The stress was unbelievable due to the financial difficulties...

Let's skip the details...Okay,i left the house around 1.30pm...Arrived in school with my dear sis and my dearie...Paid up the fees et cetera...Then went to the atrium and took some photos...You could put it as my final photos in DAMAI...Then,my girls and me went up to the hall to take our results...Was expecting to flunk ENG...But apparently,it turned out better than expected...

Well here's a dedication to those who got 5 distinction and top N levelers...Kurshida and Stephanie...Congrats for being top...in DAMAI...Alex,Frica,Wai Tung and Shaz...Congrats for getting 5 distinctions...BYE!

2009-12-07T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hey people!

Here i am again on my INQ Mini...Blogging...Its gonna be a short post ya...Went out with aenn earlier today...Bugis...Its been like forever since i last stepped foot there...Thanks ya girl for the laksa with cockles...And also the neoprints...Well got to go...shall be a detailed post later on...

P.S:To those who had me linked...thx...u guys shuld be linked soon...Can't get any access to a computer since ages back...sorry...

2009-12-05T03:30:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!

It's been almost a month since i last blogged...9th november was the date...I can't say that i had been enjoying my hols..."Life couldn't get any better than this"...Use this with a sarcastic tone and you'll probably understand my current situation..Ever since staying at my dad's...The scarcity of enjoyable stuffs to do had been to the point where it could had driven me to insanity...In addition,my handphone bill was what i never expected...There goes my monthly income...This means that there would be no movies...As in new moon...No new wardrobe...Worse!NO BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION...Tell me that would not drive anyone to the point of insanity...Well,i believe i have to stop blogging now...Blogging via INQ is not a bad thing afterall...DA~

P.S: "LIFE COULD ONLY GET BETTER IN MY DREAMS..."

2009-11-09T21:37:00.000-08:00

I believed that it has already been about a month since I last blogged.I was way too busy and I had a bunch of stufffs to handle and such.I'm still waiting for my N level results.18th December is the day where I get to know where my future stands.However,even if I have the opportunity to be promoted,I'm giving it a miss.I want to try a change.I'm sorry Dee.My minds made up.Even if it turned out to be a mistake,I won't regret it.I have a strong feeling that I would be successful in ITE.Enough of that.Well,got to go.

PS:People change so easily.Even if we were so close before.

Life's got to move on.If you think that we shouldn't be close anymore,go ahead and drift.I won't stop you.

2009-10-26T00:42:00.000-07:00

Hey people..

Here comes yet another problem.Just as I thought.Mum wants me to be in 'O'.I am kind of tired of this type of studying.Classroom based you know.I don't know about ITE though but I want something more practical.Based on what I am doing for my career.I am at lost.Sorrowful abyss is waiting with open hands.Nah...'O's or ITE?Who knows...

PS:The black abyss is where I seek refuge.

2009-10-25T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hey people..

The whole day seemed to pass by slowly.That was unexpected,I guess.It could be to the fact that I was not enjoying myself.I kind of rot the whole day infront of the tv set.Ugh.Well,yesterday was fun.I went on a picnic with Dee.It may seem kind of stupid to others but I enjoyed myself though.I don't know about her but it was for me.The topic for camping kind of came up in the conversation and I kind of thought about going camping around December area.Everyone I know is invited but the thing is,I have not planned it properly.I think if this works out,this camp would be my first real camp in the entire life.Yea so anyone who had me linked,I would really appreciate you guys joining me.Well,that could be discussed later on.The tagboard would be put up soon.Idk when but soon.Let's just say,I want to have this camp like a farewell thinglah.Like I said,I would be leaving for ITE.Well,its either camping or chalet.Idk.Well,just to update you people.

PS:We need two hands to clap.When we have found our life partner,we would know.We love 'em and we're being loved in returned.

2009-10-22T02:41:00.000-07:00

Hey people..

I am officially on holiday currently.Like finally.However,I found it quite depressing to leave the school.Yes,depressing.It had been my second home after all.Despite of the ups and downs of being in that school,it had been quite an experience for me.The last thing that could make me happy was the module.They took the students in T&H to EL TORO Restaurant.Took some pictures et cetera.Other than that,there's not much happening.I also found myself confident in whatever I do."What you do in anything is what you do in everything."I will remember that for life.Earlier today,I had the X-country.DO you know how pathetic it was.The student body was like roasted chicken the whole way throughout the event.It wasn't that hot until around 9am.We were told to sit out in the sun whereas the staffs sit in the tentage.How pathetic can it be?Despite of being exempted from running I still went for it.I didn't run but I thought the damage done by walking was minor but it was severe.I limped all the way.It didn't look like I was limping as I forced myself to walk like I was normal.My ankle became swollen.Both.Apparently,the damage done from the multiple sprains that were distributed throughout four years wasn't healed completely.Damn.Well,shall end it here now..Da~~~

PS:I am going to miss most of my classmates..*sob sob*

2009-10-20T22:30:00.000-07:00

Hey people...

Finally,I completed the Tourism and Hospitality module in school.Frankly speaking,I wasn't sure of what I wanted to do after my N level.I thank Allah for allowing me to finally lift my burden off my shoulders.I have decided that I am going to delve further into this industry.I am going through the basics via ITE.From there,I would work after I receive the appropriate certificate and I really hope I could get a job with it.Of course I WILL save up.Save up until I will be able to afford the BMC Academy fees for the Tourism/Hospitality course.I wish to be a GM when I enter the industry.Well,I want to end it off here because I have other stuffs in school.Da~~~~

PS:Life has many obstacles that we would face and we have to overcome it one by one with or without anyone's help.I did and now I feel very light hearted.Despite of the many obstacles that I faced,there are people out there I should thank and one of them is Mr.Vincent,my instructor for the module.I don't have other means on how to thank you.Thanks a million

2009-10-17T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hey people,

Back again for yet another post.Trying not to post about something emotional this time round or I'm gonna be dead.Well,since I officially graduated from the school,I actually am very worried about my future studies.I am going for ITE since the BMC academy does not allow CPF payments.I understand that it is a private institiution hence they don't accept those type of payments.Despite of what Vincent made me go through last Friday,I am still nervous about my interview for the T&H in the ITE.I have to be in an interview in order to get myself a place in the course.Nevermind,I shall find a way around it.Okay,that's done.I received my sahre of the monthly income yesterday so tomorrow is the day I release my shopping freak.Nah,kidding.I would only be buying books and that's that.What would you expect from a book freak who completed her Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows in a matter of less than a week.Okay,my day had been terrific as I managed to read the book that Fatin borrowed me.Just celebrated Dad's B'day earlier on.So I think I'll end it here as I have lots of other things to do on the net.

PS:So much to do yet so little time.

2009-10-15T04:35:00.000-07:00

Hey people,

Yeah,I'm back.Listening to Sejati by Wings while blogging.Well,my graduation ceremony collided with my B's birthday.After school,headed off with Fatin to get him a cake.The cake was great and just the right size.Whatever it is,I enjoyed today thoroughly.Why,Vincent made my day and my actions were not what I expected.During the module,to build our confidence level,he told us to walk from point A to point B using one action (walking while waving etc.) and I walked fast while holding my hand out like a superman but pointing it towards thr right.As for point B to point A,I ran like a mad woman with my hands held up high and waving vigorously.You people should imagine it.I just could not believed I did it.I am anti-social and I don't have that much self-esteem and low self-confidence.I get very shy whenever I have to perform or present something of sort.I despise those moments but after what happened today,I felt that I gained some confidence.Maybe it is still too early to say but since I am going to the T&H industry,I have to be able to approach and be approachable.Well,I got to say that this is thanks to Vincent.I owe him that much.As for the graduation ceremony,it was sentimental.I felt relief as I won't be a student in that school anymore.However,behind the feeling of relief,there is this tinge of sadness.Why you may ask.Damai had been my second home.Despite of the times when I was lazy to attend school and dreaded the whole day,I was still at my comfort zone.I am used to the environment and I would like to thank the staff in school,teachers especially for guiding me towards the end of my Secondary education and that I would never forget the moments I had which included the nad and good ones.Thank you.Then went back to Mom's house and played with Scarlett until I went back with B to celebrate with Dad.Now I am in the Lan centre using the computer to blog.Duh..Well,I'll end it here.For now.

PS:What you do in anything is what you do in everything.Your attitude is reflected in everything you do and it affects the type of result and impression that others have on you.

2009-10-14T04:37:00.001-07:00

Hey people..

As stated in the latest post...I am currently elated with my current situation after the exams and stuff.What I never knew I desired came rushing at me like the killer waves,Tsunami.Maybe that is exagerated but I am atating facts.However,despite of the happy front,I never knew of the dread that I felt I had left weeks ago.I was wrong.The unbearable dread was too much too handle that I shed tears for the first time in weeks earlier in the day.I won't state why or what made me shed tears.I never would disclose it but maybe to B,I would but not now.It's not the right time.Love really made people change huh.Love made her changed so much that it hurts to even think about it.To think about how much she changed in a matter of 2 months.It really hurts me deep inside.If she ever come across my blog,I really do hope that she understands the pain that I went through while posting this.All I wish is,she could have a nice life ahead with the man as I won't say a thing.

Okay,today was an exceptional day.I had the electives earlier and I was actually at most content after I completed the elective.Some parts of it of course.I went home learning a ton of things that I never knew before.That'll be a lie if I state that I never knew.Like a saying made by someone. "What you do in anything,is,what you do in everything." I knew the meaning of it in the very beginning but I never did voice it out.I am a very shy person okay.It had soemthing to do with attitude.When you do something positive or had positive thoughts even before you attempt something,it would turn out positive.For example,you may be facing a major test next week and now,you have a positive mindset towards your revision,there would be no doubt about your passing in the test.However,my thinking of the quote was slightly different.It was the same in the attitude thing but mine was like the positive attitude that you practice would soon be a habit and that whenever you are doing somthing,you would be positive about it.It's hard to change a habit.I also learnt about the benefits of Tourism and Hospitality.I am now very sure of pursuing T&H after I end school.Yup.It may not be something related to English Literature whatsoever but it is something that made me have passion for.I am in love with that industry and I want to pursue it.Well,I'll end it here people.Will update soon enough but I don't know when.

PS:What you do reflects on your attitude and impression of others towards you.

2009-10-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps...

Finally I could take a deep breath.My life since a week before the exams had been hell.Now,with a breather,like finally I could feel my desires seeping into my brains and mind.I wanted to do one hell of stuffs that I don't know where I should start.I started with a going down to the Lan centre at my estate.Its been the second time I been here and I reaLLY RECOMMEND the people living nearby to have a go at the computers.The price were considerate and the internet connection was fabulous.Even my back at home internet connection were not this fabulous.

One of the things that allowed me to take a breather was the ending of my Nlvls.Yup.let's just say that I am very happy to finally complete my N levels although I don't really deserve a round of applause.My work was next to terrible.Oh yes,earlier on today Fatin came over for a bit.She helped me shift my clothes to my dad's house.Living the house was next to painful but I had no choice since she wanted me out of the house.I shed bloodied tears but nothing could make time rewind.If only it could,I wish none of it happened,Oh yes,she helped me to keep my stuffs and we talked for quite a bit.One advice darling:Do take other people's opinion on what you should do.However,what matters most is you should do the thing that you think is right.You should not have doubts about your motive.If you think he is the right man for you,go for it.However,put in mind that he did tell you not to put high hopes on him.Remember that babe.Good Luck on your outing.

PS:Enjoyment comes after I had strived through the examination.I am gonna be a Damai Sec Graduate on 15 October 2009.However,no celebrations for me.Btw,happy advanced B'day B.May you have a good time in NS..hehehe....

2009-10-10T20:12:00.000-07:00

Hey people,
Blog turn dusty after sometime...Well,for once i can't say that i was lazy...Lots of things had been happening simultanously that i had a hard time keeping up...Despite of all the different problems i faced,i believed it made me much stronger than before it all happened...My nlvl had been crappy alright...Seriously speaking,i don't think i stand a chance with maths...My back up plan is to take maths again for nlvl if lets say,i don't get a passing mark for it...Alright people,i'll end it here...

PS:Blogging via phone is not bad...INQ!

2009-09-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

Hey Peeps...

Now,I'm blogging again.Just after a few days.Recently,there had been a debate about Ris Low.Is that how her name's spelt?This is my opinion.Singaporeans are making fun of her just because of the way she speaks.Like bikini to 'bigini'.SO what?Some people have troubles pronouncing certain words.I too have some trouble pronouncing some words.Like some Indians who have thick Indian accent, the word 'V' is pronounced as 'W'.What made it worse was that these people teased her about the way she speaks.I really don't get it.It's as if their English is really superb that they can reprimand and make fun of the way people who have difficulties in their pronounciation.If they think that their English is superb and that they can make fun of these people,why don't they attempt something like a beauty pageant?Ris has the ability to win the pageant despite of the way she talks.However,it was stated in the newspaper that her English got better during the interview.Well,that's my opinion anyway.Accept it people,you guys are no better than a sore loser that teased people of the way they talk or their lacking qualities.Why not you people check yourselves out in the mirror before reprimanding people of their lacking qualities?

Well people,I'm done here.Well,Ris,I'm sure that there are other opportunities for you to blossom in the entertainment industry.

PS:At least she's pretty unlike some people who makes fun of her.May be blogging soon.Around Friday maybe..Da~~

Another day in School

2009-09-27T23:57:00.000-07:00

Hey people..

Currently in school using the school computer.Yeap,school computer.Since I won't be going back early,I'd rather spend my time at school using their computer.I also made up my mind to stay up in school until 9pm today.Okay,today was quite a harsh day.The throbbing in my head was really intolerable.In addition,Yap gave me more worksheet.Ugh.So,after blogging,I would most probably complete my junior's notes.Or to put it in a better term,I would complete my time explaining the terms that he had doubts about.So got to go...

PS:Troublesome is the word.

2009-09-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

Now,currently at Computer Lab 3.Obviously I am in school,duh~~Well,today I won't be updating that much as I will be studying at school up till 9pm.Now,bad news is that.I am going on a study spree up till 20 October.Oh yes,I also went to awesome closet's blogshop and that I already booked some stuff from the owner.All would cost me around $40.So that's that.Really got to go before Siti goes crazy..

Ja~~~Blog Ownwer---Study Spree__No updates for the time being...

Rafidah

New Skin..

2009-09-24T01:51:00.000-07:00

Hey people!!!

Seemed cheery hah...Storm beneath the calm waters.I decided to search for a new skin as my previous skin went coo-coo..I just found out how tiring it was in order to search for a new skin.Came across this skin as I was surfing through the site.Found it nice and did some changes to my settings et cetera.Now,I'm at mum's house blogging before ironing her shirt.Yes,ironing her shirt.Then I'll be heading off to dad's house.

Let's talk about today.I woke up extremely late.At around 5.45am and showered et cetera and went out of dad's house around 6.30am.School was super hilarious.Seriously speaking,school had been utterly enjoyable since I sat bhind Ronnie and Wei Hao.Of course I sat beside my girl.Won't update more about school.Had school and headed home with Fatin.Reached da's place around 2.15pm.Took my bike to mum's place and now,going to stop blogging.I have to study so may not be blogging again for quite a while.I mean it this time.Seriously,I have to stop blogging before B gets angry...He wants the computer and I'm hogging again.Well,got to go...Another time then..

PS:The councilling session I had was kind of helpful.Cyber-councilling sessions are fun..

Left downhearted...Again

2009-09-22T21:25:00.000-07:00

Hey people...

I just found out last night that she doesnt want to take care of me anymore.Haha..Lol...Thought it was otherwise as I was back to normal with her.We talked like we used to.However,when I thought about it again,there is this air of awkwardness whenever we're in the same room or in a conversation.She didn't gove a the house keys.Hence,I now know what she really wants.Maybe,if I just shift out..It would be for the better...However,on the brighter side of life,I seemed to be changing slightly after that unfortunate event.I can't promised anything but I will try my best to return to he right path.I'll end it here.Won't be blogging for the next couple of days.Maybe...

PS:I am in a distraught condition now.I have problems hence I can't help out others with theirs.Sorry...

Hari Raya!

2009-09-20T01:18:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps..

I'm sure my close girlfriends will know about it.I am not celebrating raya fully this year.I feel downhearted though but what to do?Since mama does not want to celebrate it,I son't feel like it.So,I officially am staying at my dad's place.I don't know until when but I am very sure that I would be staying there for quite a period.However,mama is still my mum hence I must visit her every now and then.Like now,only this is compulsory as it is Hari Raya.Aunty asked me out for an outing but I declined as I wasn't in the mood.They went out so late thus my mood turned sour.Okay,well,got to go.I don't feel like blogging for the next few days.I won't be seeing the computer for a few days until Wednesday and Friday.Therefore,my post will be twice a week.Or maybe thrice.Got to go.I have tons of chores to do before I actually can return to my dad's place.

PS:I bored.SOmebody care to help me clean my mama's house!?

Depression persists!

2009-09-17T20:45:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps..

Like the title says,depression came full force at me recently.The matter of fact that it happened,was like a blow to my head.A blow made from a very close person.Worst still,I had not been having enough rest recently.My body was like awake whereas I was asleep at that point of time.

Good news people...I would be celebrating Hari Raya alone this year.Only when I am off visiting my mother's relative.While on my father's relative side,I would be celebrating with him.You might want to ask why but I won't elaborate on this matter.I'll like to give my thanks to Fatin and Dee for their support and encouraging words.Thanks guys.I don't know how long this depression will stay.I will try my best to look for treatment soon.Bye..

PS:Thought we could stay together like a family.I was wrong.I admit that I was wrong but it's up to you to remain this.It might be for the better.

2009-09-15T21:02:00.000-07:00

Hey people...

Yes,as you can see.There ain't no title in this post.Firstly,I can't think of any title.Secondly,I don't think I can come up with a title.Oh yes,Did I ever mentioned that I went of to JB last week?Sunday to be exact.I didn't buy anything other than the pastries and some Tshirts and Jeans that belonged to my brother,B.Since I was fasting,I ended up breaking my fast as soon as I reached home.The temperature or rather,the heat in Malaysia was much higher and hotter as compared to Singapore.

I went out of the house and met my grandma and cousins at Golden Landmark taxi stand.We headed off to the customs via taxi.First stop,Woodlands checkpoint.After the customs,the jam was terrible.I felt like walking.Maybe,walking is much faster.Second stop,we went to the JB checkpoint.Damn that immigration officer.Banyak songey sey.I kind of fell asleep while waiting to pass the checkpoint.Now the adventure begins.

We went to Angsana after getting a taxi.Frankly speaking,I don't think I could ever get used to travelling.No offence,I still prefer Singapore.We went to Angsana to buy some dry pastries.Yea right,some.My mum ended buying dry pastries worth up to 95RM.I saw a pair of heels,killer heels to be exact in one of the stores.Frankly speaking,buying branded goods in Malaysia,in my opinion is much cheaper.However,I didn't buy one and will be buying one this Friday.Next stop,Kota Raya.I went in search for my baju raya but not a single type of set caught my eye.Then we went to the secon floor and bought another set of pastries worth of more than 200Rm.Plenty hah.We bought jeans and T shirt for my B.

Seriously speaking,I became a carrier that day.My arms ached as soon as I reached the taxi stand.Ugh,well got to go.I didn;t managed to snap photos as my battery went flat.Stupid phone!I will snap good photos the next time I go on a short trip to another country again.Really got to go now.Siti's making her rounds.I'll be nagged at if she knows I'm blogging.

PS:My head is banging the soul out of me.

Dying of Boredom!!!

2009-09-11T02:26:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!!

The first part of N level was done and I am currently dying of boredom.Oh yes,I had math lesson yester with Yap Ming Yi.Algebra,frikly speaking,I find it stupid.Whoever created it must be a total freak.This whole week had been quite ravenous for me.Fought with mum,bro and then coolig down and fighting again.On the other hand,I helped my mum with the fest.cookies.I love cookies.So later will be off to dad's house to spend the night there.HGaving late night instant maggiwe even if he does like it.Rebellious hah..SO I kind of blog-hopped to unknown blogs earlier on.I found a website.I know I am not supposed to believe in it whatsoever but I find this kind of thing fun.So try it out people.Well,got to go.Got to finish my chores before headinf to dad's house.

Lets101 Quizzes - Blog Quizzes

PS:Patriotic and Spontaneous huh..Wonder what that means.Nevermind,shall do some look ups later..

'N'lvl's unbearable burden

2009-09-07T02:49:00.000-07:00

Hey people!

I can't believe that I took my N level mother tougue paper earlier today.Talking about the paper,I was shocked to find some parts of it easy whereas others were difficult and tedious.Paper 1 came as a total shock to me as I was expecting a plot that I was used to writing.I chose question 6.Not a love story though.*Disappointing*Paper 2 went by like the wind.Okay,there were frictions in some places but other than that,it was okay.Atually,I don't know what came over me.I actually cycled to school all the way from Circuit Rd.I can't say that it is that far but what made it felt far was the seat that caused my bum to feel painful.Cycled to school at 6:12am and reached school at 6:45am.Tomorrow will be one hellish day.First paper starts at 8:00am and ends at 8:30am.Then there is a 5 hour gap to the next paper.Social Studies will be up next at 2:00pm.It will end at 3:30pm.Well,wish me luck people.

PS:I have never been good in social studies.Well,got to give my best right?*Prays to Allah*

Panicking

2009-09-03T21:11:00.000-07:00

Hey people...

Now I am currently in the school computer lab.Supposingly,I was halfway through with my FnN essay but then I felt very unsatisfied with it that I ended up not saving it.So yeah,now I am slacking.I am kind of joining a few students slacking.Well,yesterday was a very 'special' day for me.Let's just say that I got suspended for not bringing my thermometer.Maybe suspension is a harsh word to describe it.Quarantine will be better.However,I am very grateful with the opportunity of being suspended.This was mainly because I wanted to do my own self study since the start of the week.On the other hand,I didn't bring enough material to occupy myself.I started doing my notes at around 8am.I ended up sleeping at around 12pm.That was four hours worth of studying.I waited for Mdm Yap but she didn't turn up hence I ended up going home.My head was throbbing like hell when I reached home.Actually,I was pissed with everyone around me.Firstly,I didn't have anything to begin the fast with.I was hungry.Secondly,I was suspended for not bringing my thermometer.That I felt was crap.Thirdly,my B irritated the hell out of me.I kind of got out of the pissed off state later in the day.I enjoyed myself in the kitchen with B.We cooked chilli macaroni.I had doubts about the taste but it was not bad.The rest of the day went as per normal.Now,my brain is making plans on how to get about going home.I want to go home quick.Well,got to go...Siti's coming!!

PS:Lecturer???Maybe a lecturer in English Literature.Who knows...

Calm waters----Tsunami beneath...

2009-09-01T02:46:00.000-07:00

Hey people...

Lately,I had been thinking about my future.Frankly speaking,I have no motive in this current life I am leading.I don't have any dreams that I can hold on to in order to continue my studies.Actually I did but that was years ago.I came up with the dream of becoming a manager of a hotel but come to think of it,the salary may be good but during a recession?I may living of my savings account.I do know that,that is a big risk that I have to take when I become a manager of a hotel (tourism industry).So I was at lost last night..Until...I thought of my ambition to become a lecturer in a University.I dreamed of being one when I was young.AT that point,I don't know what I'm going to master in.History,Science?However,when I thought of it last night,I wonder if there is such a thing as being a master in English Literature.Hence,I consulted Fatin for her opinions and of course I am taking it into consideration.Thanks girl.I am also going to consult Sis for her opinion.Afterwards,I will then make my decision at the end of the year.Well,got to go...

PS:I'm at lost....LOST!!!I have to make the right decision as I will be walking the path later on..Taskete....Adieu!!

Moderation Persists...

2009-08-29T18:07:00.001-07:00

Hey peeps!Like the title says...Nowadays,the things that I do were unbalance.Lets take using the computer and studying for my upcoming paper as an example.Both these things were unbalanced hence moderation persists.

Okay,over the weekend,I barely did much.All I did was hog onto the net and surf all day.Other than that,I cleaned the house as per normal and slept for a short while.I rented four movies from a nearby rental shop near my home.Bring it on,Looney toons,School of rock and Madagascar.Old movies I know but I love Bring it on the best.Well,the lady by this post is Ariel Lin.The show I recommend is It started with a kiss and they kiss again.All is watchable on mysoju.Well,may be updating on the next blue moon...Lame!Da~~~

Ps:I don't get why thin people always contradicts fat ones.Materialistic sey..

Exhaustive periods....

2009-08-26T04:02:00.001-07:00

Hey people..

Ramadhan is here to stay.I kind of can't wait for Aidilfitri though.Will you believe that during Raya is the only day I get to use my heels?Let's just say that heels are just my thing as compared to any other accessories that could be related to a female.My results were pathetic.My main goal now is to work harder for Maths as I would be facinga tough time getting into the institution if I were to fail.Worse still,I may not be going sec 5 or getting enrolled into any institution.Lately,I had been feeling lethargic.I get cold at times when others felt normal.I was not nervous whatsoever.Mind you,I get really cold when I am nervous.I brought my jacket for the past few day and that really helped me a lot.I also decided to return to the rightful path.I left the practice years back and now,he had showed me the light.I think,this is my only chance to change.

Let's talk about today.I went to school feeling really lethargic.I didn't eat anything during sahur.So yea,I only drank plain water and showered after that.In school,nothing much happened except for some ILD debating.You want to know what ILD means?I'll tell you in the labels.Initially,I planned to do a long term/hour of studying in Tampined Library but I backed out of the idea.I went back with Fatin,taking 66.Seroiusly,I hate crowded places especially busses.Okay whatever.I kind of had a few things going on in my head.Ain't gonna talk about it.I reached home and showered before taking an hour nap.Now,I am on the net blogging and then watching Inuyasha.Well,got to go..Got to prepare the breaking of fast food.Da~~

PS:My tummy's rumbling...

Troubles far away****Enjoying life to the fullest...

2009-08-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

Picture taken the day before the wedding.
Sharmin,Azizah,Rafeedah

Yo peeps!!

Let's just start and end this post on a good note.My troubles seemed so far away and I am enjoying life to the fullest.I know my first N level paper is like two weeks away but I can't seem to give my fullest attention to my revision.My FnN was one of the few that was selected for the 'checking'.There are somethings that I find wrong with my coursework though but...Maybe...Nah,not going to mention it.Well,sorry Siti,my mind's all set for ITE..Sorry FnN peeps,if my marks were to bring you people down,I apologised.So,I checked out the criteria for the damn course,I have to pass maths A1-B4,English A1-B3 and best three subjects.How unlucky can my maths be.Like I have been mentioning in the past few posts,I sucked at Maths.Yup,I got a 'u' for my maths.

Therefore,I decided to give my best for N level because I believe that I can do it.I also have the confidence that I can pass it at least a B4.So,my 'timetable'...No,I don't follow timetables.Every weekend,may be spend in the regional library from 10am to about 4pm.Too long yes but I am the type of person to actually do my studying over long periods than for short periods. I tend to make my notes.This routine will start from tomorrow onwards.Tomorrow will be spend in Bedok RL.Yes,Bedok.Social studies notes for sec 3 must be done to about half.May be tired from writing but its for my own good.

Let's get on with the moments that happened today.In the morning,received a message from Fatin stating that she won't be attending school because of the high fever.So in school as per normal,kept some important stuff for her.I will be sending it to her tomorrow about 9.45am.During POA,I think that was the crappiest moment in my entire Sec 4 life.Gaby sat next to me.What a damn irritating B**t**D!!!He gives me the creeps.The rest of the day passed slowly.During FnN,I was told to set the content page and hand up.Why?I was one of the chosen idiots who have to pass the coursework for marking.I dread doing it for quite sometime but I kind of got over it when I was really into it.I was also asked to but some creams for my mum.So i walked down to Sheng Shiong to buy it.At the same time,I decided to but some Tuna cans and bread for my mum.I brought her some bread so she could bring it with her when she goes to work at night.I bus-ed home straight.When I reached the bustop near my house,it was raining heavily.I kind of took the chance to actually walk through the downpour.I have to do so because I was holding it in since school ended.When I reached home,yeah got nagged and as usual,showered and took a nap.Well,got to end it here,I am dead tired.

PS:When you got to go,you got to go.

To hell I'll go...

2009-08-18T03:00:00.000-07:00

Peeps!!!

Like the title says..I'm going to hell if I don't freaking hell get myself to buck up.I still have not checked the website for the course yet.I don't want to be in a situation in which I can't go up to sec 5 (definitely not my option) nor being uneligible for any particular course for ITE.My results was Disturbingly pathetic.I failed loads of them.Well,I'll update more tomorrow.Going to do some course researching.Da~~

PS:I'm so dead...I have to buckle up now.There's another 3 weeks to do some bucking up.JY...

Doomed...

2009-08-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

Hey people!!!

Today's lessons went quite slowly.I admit that my efforts in staying awake most of the time were futile.Worst still,my results added to the flame of disappointment that I felt.I was terribly disappointed with myself because I can't keep myself on track in school.I meant that I can't keep myself from dozing off and slacking in class.Secondly,the results I received for my prelims were absolutely rubbish...No,it was not only rubbish but was uberly disturbing.My Chemistry was a just pass.My English?Tell me about it.In my entire life of education,I only remembered failing once or twice but not this bad.However,my Malay papers made up for the disappointment by an inch.I got an A1 at least.Congrats to Rabiatuladawiyah for topping the class.I never looked forward to topping the class as I enjoyed the 'wall of fame' willingly when I was in Primary school.Yes yes.There is this feeling of proud that lingers in you when you top everyone but its gone after sometime.I'm going off end of this year though so why should I care if I ever top the class or not.Well,congrats again Rabia.
After school,headed off to Bedok Interchange with Fatin.I wanted to go shopping for perfume.This was instructed by my mum.Thus,I can't run away from that task.We went to return the book she borrowed for me.I read it thrice over the weekend.A freak right?Then we headed of to the perfume shop and I bought some of it.About five types.She wanted to eat waffle so I accompanied her while she eats.We both headed home afterwards.Back at home,I kind of felt feverish so I took a quite shower and a short nap.So now,I'm blogging before I actually watch some Taiwanese drama.

PS:Make decisions wisely,live it if you must.Regret it,you musn't.

Bored to death....

2009-08-16T00:50:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I did not enjoy this weekend.Although everything was slow and steady but I was not enjoying myself.I have been hangingaround on facebook,youtube and some other websites.I also found the tecktonik dance quite interesting.I only got interested in the dance danced by Lecktra.She's a good dancer I admit.Last night watched Boys BEfore Flowers before departing for my dreamland around 10:15pm.I did not really sleep actually.Since I know what happened in the series,I kind of decided to give the showtimes a miss.I went on to read the book for like a second time this weekend.I was labelled an alien by someone.Why you might ask.Let's just say that I was able to finish reading the Twilight Saga in a week's time.Or less.*Wonder*

I may be going to the library tomorrow and I might end up at home around 5pm.I wanted to read this book "Gelora Asmara" by Haryani.It's a good book.I last read it during my Sec 2 years.That was a long time ago.Anyone care to follow me?I checked it out at Bedok and Tampines but let's just say that the book had gone with the wind.If the book's not there than I'd read some other books that captures my interest.Of course I won't be hurrying out of the library as soon as I step in of course.Let's just say that I get agitated when people who accompanies me willingly o course kept on pestering me on when we should go home.I hate it.Well,got to go.I want to listen to some music before continue reading the book.

PS:Cut me some slack.I may have not scored well for the damn prelim but I will ensure that I get a significant pass for my N level.

Troubles behind~~~New burdens to come

2009-08-15T00:58:00.000-07:00

Since today's a Saturday...I had no special plans whatsoever other than sitting at home rotting.Oh yes,I forgot to thank my darling Fatin for helping me borrow the book I recommended on yesterday's post."Bersama Akhirnya"-Nur Fatihah Mahmud.
That's done.Well,like I said,I had no plans with anyone so I kind of spent my first quarter of my morning cleaning the rubbish out of my room.Then the next quarter reading the book for like the second time.I don't know why but I kind of read it slower.Halfway through while listening to music and reading at the same time,I fell asleep.I'm not worried of an argument breaking out as I already did my part of the house chores.So here I am blogging after I ironed the 'few' pieces of clothes that belong to my mum,B, and myself."Few".So the last few quarters of this Saturday will be spent at my dad's house.Hey,I got to equally distribute my time between spending here at my mum's and at his.The fact that he's my dad can't be changed.Okay,will be off to his house around 6pm.Of course it can be postponed to 7pm.

What the title stated is,"Troubles behind and new burdens to come".I kind of got over the fact that she tried to pester me to stay for Sec 5 but seriously,I am not interested thus I am going off for my course.Maybe the direct entry scheme.I kind of ignored her now,no smiles whatsoever from me anymore.This is what you get for pestering me.The burden of my results for N level is heavy on my shoulders.The course didn't state how much point I have to get to be in it.However,it stated that the cut off points is 9.If I get nine,I would rather stay on and go off to JC.I think that was using the old system of L1B2 or something like that.My batch uses the new system of EMB3.I have to get my English,Maths and Best 3 subjects.If I don't get the exact points,I have to get myself registered as an N level private candidate.Nu-uh!This burden had been staying at the back of my mind since th day I decided to stop at N level and move for ITE."What if I get influenced?What will I do?"-----I kind of managed to keep it at bay,preventing it from actually busting my brains and getting me freaked out.I did by always saying "The driver is responsible for its wheels."If you don't get it,try and figure it out.I must have my own discipline in order to steer myself in the right way and on the right tracks.Okay so now,I will be forgetting all the burdens and just get a move on in life before the actual examination.For now,lets just say,I want to fly some kites.Enjoy myself...

PS:Discipline is a must in everyone.I have to persevere in whatever I do in order to achieve the thing I want.I'll see you people in life than...

Ending off on a good note...8)

2009-08-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

Hey people!!!

Today's papers went quite well.However~~~I didn't expect the FnN questions to be tough.Quite.Although I did study the book but the question really came out as a surprise.My POA was also rubbish.That's the only word I can use to describe it.Well,whatever.I decided to go ITE and that's final but I am trying my best for my N level before I actually go off.I don't want my four years in Damai going down the drain.Well,spent time with my dearest in Bedok library.Like finally,I managed to read the book that I read 4 years back.The book is well recommended.Well,I think I'll end today's post on a good note."Whatever that had happened cannot be change.It is best that we move on before it gets to us."

PS:People dread over things but they get over it almost immediately.Unlike them,those dreads stayed with me.

Let me spread my wings and I'll learn to fly.Don't keep me caged....

Rush of Adrenaline

2009-08-13T04:20:00.000-07:00

Hi hi!!!
Let's just say that he made my day.Not boyfriend no.My brother,my beloved B.Okay whatever.The papers earlier today was moderately difficult.This includes the 'E' Mathematics paper.However,what made me happy was I managed to do the paper,maybe to a satisfactory level.Oh yes and I still have not decided to take which course when I'm in ITE.Leeyah also wanted to attend ITE next year.May be going to the same course as her.On the other hand,there is this nervousness and excitedness in me that made me jump around like a monkey.I just can't wait for the Direct Entry Scheme during the January intake.That scheme will allow me to go Higher Nitec next year.I wanted to go for Business and Service (Tourism).The modules attracts me.Plus,I will be able to learn Mandarin and Japanese.TO be in this tertiary industry,I have to be BILINGUAL.I can't wait.Well,got to end it here.I have to watch 4 more anime episodes before opening my FNN text and damaging my brain with it.If I don't,SHE will repeat "YOU BETTER STUDY YOUR THEORY FOR N LEVEL.I DON'T WANT YOU TO REPEAT YOUR NLEVEL!"
Daa~~~~

PS:I am aiming for full marks and if I do so,stop your repetition of the same thing.I am getting sick of it.Hah.Repeat N level huh.I am going off end of this year and repeat my n level!?What a joke.You got to start seeing the light of ITE.Its not all that bad despite of the type of students of course.My brother,B,received the outstanding award of the cohort.ITE Simei.Why,he maintained a four point gp or something like that...Congrats...

Busy,busy...

2009-08-12T06:13:00.000-07:00

Hey people...
Dead blog since the last post.I was kind of lazy to update the blog.On the other hand,I was busy with my prelim papers.Most of the papers are done.What's left now are FnN *dreaded subject*,"E" Mathematics*Can't wait*,POA paper 1*Ugh* and Physics*Bursting with adrenaline*.

I really expected all the papers to be difficult but some of them were not that un-do-able.Chemistry paper was also not that tough but how in the world can I actually forget the format of blast furnace....Dumb-dumb.Let bygones be bygones.Did I say it right?I'm going to update my other blog in a short while.I really hope there are more readers to it.Why?I ain't going to tell.I'm getting really frustrated when people tried to stop my decisions.I know what I'm doing is stupid but I feel that my future lies there.Not in Damai.No offence but I can no longer adapt to this lifestyle.I want to do something practical."You better study your theory."This was told to me like for the third time in this year?I get very irritated when people repeat what I already know."You better study your theory.I don't want you to repeat N level."I don't get it.Repeat N level!?I am going off next year and you say you don't want me to repeat N level!?Is this a joke?Get real.I am going off next year so why do I want to repeat my N level FnN?I don't get her...She doesn't seem to understand English...I already planned my future.Kind of.Brief of it to be exact.I want to get into a course like hotel management or film and media.Either this or that.Get on with studies and I'll see what my course takes me to in life.Got to end it here.

PS:ITE is not the end of life.It's only the beginning.You people have not seen the 'light' yet.Narrow-minded.Whereas,some others are just trying to get me to stay on in Sec 5 for the benefit of themselves,Yes you.You know me very well but you are trying to intervene on my decision.It does not work that way honey.I've been in peer pressure and that does not work anymore.I don't fall for it.Intervene one more time and I make sure you'll regret it.Daa~~~

Troubles...

2009-08-03T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hey people...

This blog must be very boring huh..No pictures,just words.Okay whatever.The day went just right earlier on.There was no p.e as Anthony was unwell.Then had mother tougue..Boring..No amusing scenes whatsoever.Hady told a few people to create sentences.I finished it within 15mins of the whole two periods.Then had social studies.I didn't do any revision.Slept,read the textbook and just stone.Recess was as usual,spent time in the library doing nothing.Ate sandwich bought when I reached school around 7am.Went back to class afterwards and drank green tea.Sherlyn came and went through chemistry papers.I didn't even bother to copy down.Stone.I usually stone when I am tired.Then Rajpreet came in for English.Got back papers.Stone some more.Went through formats for report and letter writing/formal letter.I was stoning again when a flying cockroach landed on Saiful's back.Yup.He tried to whack it of but to no avail.It kind of dropped to the floor and yea.Crawled to my direction and I was shocked so all I could do was stand and back away slowly.He took tissue and squeezed it before throwing out the window.That's the only entertainment for the day.I also got a message from Siti.More mistakes.Have to edit.Like I said,I ain't gonna edit again whatsoever.Told her I was going off end of this year.Thanks for the concern but my decisions are final.People say I am a potential straight A student but I can't adapt to this type of studying anymore.After school,spent time with junior.He was sick and I swore to kick his butt if I were to fall sick within 4 Aug - 14 Aug.Explain or rather cleared his doubts about sec 2 history.Sef-studied until 3.15pm.Then I bus-ed home.Continued to stoned occasionally in the bus.Slacked at home until now.I'm off to study my social studies.Have to get the notes ready by tonight have to return the book to Leeyah.Thanks girl.

Tmr Schedule:
1)Comple El papers
2)Change to home clothes
3)Study at Tamp library-Nice ambience
4)Bus home around 7.45pm

RF

Prelims

2009-08-01T05:36:00.001-07:00

Hey people!

Let's start with yesterday.I had my mother tougue Nlvl oral yesterday.Frankly speaking,it was not too hard but I was shocked with the conversation topic.*Direct translation*"What movie did you like watching either in the theater or at home?What did you learn from it?" Seriously,I was not expecting it.I was expecting something like this."Do you have any dreams or ambitions to direct a movie?Why?"...I told them about a malay movie in the black-white pictures.Umm..Ali Baba and the 40 thieves.I told them that as human beings,we should not be greedy.Greediness will only lead to our destruction.We should always be thankful with whatever we have currently.I ended it there.However,I made an embarrasing exit.Nope.I did not trip what-so-ever.I pulled the door too hard.Bang!That shocked the crap out of me.Okay whatever.On the brighter side,I wasn't nervous like my English Nlvl oral.I was calm.

Rewind...Rewind...Before oral...

I went off with Dee after lesson ends.She wanted her composition as soon as possible.Therefore,we met Ms Rapreet Kaur.Well,Ms Rajpreet agreed to give it to her but we have to wait.That was how I ended up outside the staffroom.The weather was fine therefore,I wasn't sweating so much.Initially,I wanted to go to the library to study but this interupted.I accompanied Dee.Later,we were joined by Yu Xian and Ling Qing.We don't really talk though.Yu xian did his test,Ling Qing completed a few worksheets.Ms Rajpreet came out and we talked and talked till 1.50pm.We excused ourselves and headed to the third floor to fetch Hidayu.The three of us then went to AVA room.Went for oral.After oral,we joined Ms Rajpreet again.We helped key in the class test results then Dee and I headed home.Kind of.I went to the library at Tampines before Dee joined me.Yup..She went home to change and get stuffs.I reached home around 8.10pm but I didn't enter the house.Not because I was afraid.I had no key.Thus,I spent my time waiting outside the backdoor like a pathetic idiot.My bad.The slept.

Today was okay.I woke to find out my LG secret screen had shattered.Damn.That really made my day.*Sarcastic tone*Then surfed the net until 12pm before doing the laundry and meeting Dee.Initially,we planned to go to airport to study but I changed it cause I was lazy to go to airport.We met at Food Culture instead.Tampines,Century Square.Studied the she went off at around 4.15pm.She had some family stuffs to do.I headed to the library and studied until 7pm.Ate carrot cake and chicken nugget while walking towards the library.I must be some geek huh.I reached home around 8.10pm.Now I'm blogging than I'm going to study.Again.

RF

No SCHOOL

2009-07-30T02:18:00.000-07:00

Hello!
As the title says...I have MC for today...Fever since last night...However,tomorrow I'll be back because I have N level MT oral.That...hmm..I can't describe in words...Not much to blog anyway...Won't be updating too much from now on...Why you may ask...Prelim is like next week therefore I am going to isolate myself at school library almost everyday after school...Bye...

RF
PS:You can either find me in the library or canteen after school...

Stressful life is only a start to a big change...

2009-07-29T05:14:00.000-07:00

Hey people...
All I got to say is that,I got to be strong when facing the waves of mental and physical stress.Let's begin from last night.

I came home after meeting Siti.I had plenty on my mind.As usual,showered,ate then TV.Around 5pm to 7pm,I surfed the net.I came home around 3.30pm.Then the hell begins.I did my coursework for the final time and I finished it around 12 midnight.No,to be exact,I finished it 10 mins before 1am.The loading of the computer and everything was like 10 mins therefore,my lights off last night was at 1am sharp.

Earlier in the morning,I was woken up by my mama's alarm rooster.Damn irritating.It rang at 4.30am.Imagine only sleeping for like 3.5hrs.I have to stay up like for another 27hrs before I can go to bed.I am utterly exhausted.School was okay.*wonder*I never feel sleepy in school though.I had Ming Yi's lesson for the first and second period.It was alright.I did my filing so it was so bad.Than J.Tan's lesson was super slow.Too slow that I feel if I were to sleep,it'll be like sleeping for 2hrs.His period was the third and fourth period.The fifth and sixth period were Hady's lesson.I had to do a dialogue composition.I didn't finish it though.However,that kept me occupied.Than the seventh period was recess.As usual,slacked with Fatin in the library.We kind of talked crap loads of the time.I think that is the only time I can let the real me out.The eighth,nineth,tenth and eleventh period were Siti's lesson.The eigth,nineth period I spent my time in the kitchen,stoning most of the time.The tenth and eleventh period was spent in the Computer Lab 3.I did another few additions or rathe amended my coursework.Again.Passed it up and that's it.For assembly,my clas was the first few to experience the big fans in the hall.The assembly was painful to watch.When you did it,you got to face the music.Stayed in school until 5.45pm.Tutored Junior until 5.30pm then waited for Fatin and we went home together.Now blogging and then shutting the computer.Eyes can't take it anymore.Feels like collapsing any longer if I were to stay up.

RF

Confused...

2009-07-28T03:58:00.000-07:00

Hey there...
Today's activities was fine although the day went very slow.I reached school around 6.45am.Early right?Who cares.Had breakfast.Vico and egg,tuna sandwich.I head to class at around 7am sharp.Did some math wksht.No calculator so workings w/o answers will do.Secluded myself from the world with music.Blasted some MJ's music and read Harry Potter and Order of Phoenix;believe it or not,I read it like four times since I bought it.Geography was boring.Fahizal didn't come to school so yea.Mariana came in for the first period,then Hassan came in for the second.Poa was crap.Clueless.Was having a slight migraine and it irritates me.English was okay.I continued to read HP.By recess,was having the worse migraine.Never felt better at the moment.Slacked at library with Fatin.Talked some stuff.Migraine got even worse as maths approached to an end.I felt like collapsing when saying goodbye to Ming Yi.Physics was fantastic.Sng didn't come so Ang took over.Free period.Kind of.Wanted to sleep but head throbbed badly when I laid my head on the table.Since I was excited about Hp,continued reading.Met Siti after school.Talked some stuff and headed home.Reached home and showered,ate,tv and now blogging.While doing some stuff for Nlvl;Siti.

PS:I don't know if I should stay on or go next year.Staying on scared the shit out of me.Going off make me think twice.

Start afresh...

2009-07-27T05:42:00.000-07:00

Hey people!
Last week was hell.I can't believe that I had to do about 7 tests.There were some changes to test schedules thus I only had to do about 5 tests.Even though the school prohibits more than 4 tests per week.However,we decided to keep quiet about it.I am looking forward to school because there is no TAF.Despite of me looking forward for school everyday,there is a part of me that dreads going to school.Okay,whatever it is.I have to be positive.

Also last week,I kind of had a hard time coping with school and housework.Yup,housework people.On my mind,there's plenty of school burdening problems,added with the problems from home.How desirable can my life be?I think,I argued with my family members thrice last week.There's a tinge of regret in me for arguing with them.On the brighter side,I managed to almost complete my part 1 FnN Nlvl notes.There's a part 2 that I'm looking forward to.Next up,this week,I got a pleasant surprise.I thought my Chemistry test was going down the drain but nope.It may not be that satisfying but I manage to grab myself an A2.Come on,it's only a point 40 marks.There's not much I got to say.

I'm sorry for not wishing anyone whose birthday fall this month or last month.I'm a passive person.My passive personality is a disadvantage to me.I don't have the courage to actually say it in person but I really wish you birthday girls a happy birthday.Hehe..Okay,got to go.

R.F

Dusty Blog

2009-07-20T03:18:00.000-07:00

Yo peeps!

What a dusty blog this have become.Tsk..Okay.The main reason I didn't blog is due to my laziness.Is that how you spell it?Okay whatever.The other reason is that,there is not much to blog about.I rarely go blog hopping either.Been is a slight depression because of Micheal Jackson's death.I can't believe he's dead.My mind kind of immortalized him.Yup.However,I kind of managed to get out of it.You want to know how?I kept him immortalized in my heart and my mind.His songs are in my playlist.In my opinion,his songs have very deep meaning like Earth song.Yea.Okay whatever it is,I kind of used some of his songs for inspirations for my new stories.You know,like composition.Talking about compositions,I realised that I love writing and using my imagination to create new plots for future stories.I don't really think its day dreaming though.I don't even know where to classify it.Fatin too noticed it and kind of suggested that I go under filmography when I'm in Polytechnic.Under producer/director.I don't know.I need a consultant man!

Earlier today,I had my Chemistry and Malay test.My Chemistry is of course not that bad but maybe a satisfactory pass?My Malay.I think I can say ta-ta to it.I didn't do it properly.I was having a migraine and what do you expect,of course I never do it properly.I ate panadol extra after recess.During recess,I was eating in the library with Fatin and Dee.Chat and studied.Did Fatin's hair also.I didn't realise her got longer.Ms Rajpreet gave us topics during English.I chose topic 3:LOVE.It can be about anything.Descriptive,Narrative or argumentative.I chose this because I got two different plots to write and the best one,will be handed up.Fatin had some interviews for the upcoming president/vice-p for drama.She was with Rabia and Mr Johnson.So I was waitng in the library while thinking about new plots for my chosen topic.I was kind of almost developing it when I decided to go home.So yeah,now I'm blogging and maybe another few weeks will be another post.Got to shut the comp.Homework and revision.

PS:Get out of my sight!You disgust me!Can't believe I said that.*pouts*

Dead life?Who knows..

2009-07-04T03:31:00.005-07:00

Hey..
I don't know if the title ever got to do with the contents or not.Maybe a little bit.Well,I seem a bit restless for the first week of school.My head was thinking "yea,whatever."I know I'm not supposed to be like that but I can't help it.I am thinking of giving my fullest concentration.No..give myself and my concentration a second chance next week.Thus I am going to rest thoroughly this week end and try to forget all my worries.I also got to say that I'm am 'dead'.As in no life...So everything will be changed next week.I am also not going to school on Monday.Youth day..FnN is okay.Handed up my stuff but via email.

Question:Should we give a 100% trust to the people around us?
Had a debate over this question with many people.Some say yes.Some say no.I am sitting on the fence.This is my opinion.No one can be trusted fully.I trust my friends yes but not 100%.Let's say about 60%.There must always be doubt.Current there ia a 'war' going on in school.Confrontation and whatever.You people should get it.Why don't people just take it as a misunderstanding.Yes whatever people say about you,why should you care?Like _____ ____,why should you care.The 'victim' may feel that her dignity may have fallen to the core as she admits that its not her.I know how that feels..being accused by the accuser...is it?yea whatever...It's rumours...RUMOURS!Mouth to mouth...Twisted story along the way..But my dear friend.That doesn't mean I'm not trusting your story.Whatever it is,I don't want and I don't want to care or involve myself in this 'war'...

PS:Get a move on if you think this 'war' is too much for you.Don't burden yourself with it.Why don't you just give in and apologize to both of them eventhough you yourself know you're not in the wrong.Whatever your choice is,I'll still be you friend.Eww..Cheesy man!

Unhappy day ahead

2009-07-04T03:31:00.003-07:00

Unhappy day ahead

2009-07-04T03:31:00.001-07:00

New Skin's up..Update for the month..

2009-06-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

Hola...
YTea..I know I have not been updating for the past few weeks.The last post was on 050609.Yea..Lazy to update you can say.Whatever it is..I am so going to update briefly for this month and a detailed description about today's event.

Well,this month..let's just say that I have been slacking during the June Holidays.Not any homework whatsoever have been done.Yea..No subjects have been revised.Lazy..On the other hand,I have been able to do some adjustments on my blog.So..the blog skin's done.I like it although it's got to do with LOVE.I am so not in LOVE whatsoever.Yea..Okay..The house is almost ready and all the up-to-date pictures will be uploaded.Updates of the month done.

Today had been a terrific day.My so unlikely-to-go-out-with-me brother agreed to go out for a movie with me.Night at the museum 2.It's recommended to those who have not watched it yet.We went there via Cabby.Yup..Taxi.We cabed down to Downtown East.Cathay Cinema and bought our ticket.Cinema 2,seats A7,A8.We're at the back row baby.THen we went to Zone-X.Yup,the arcade.Tried on bikes etcetera.Lost most of the games but whatever it is,the utmost important thing is that,I enjoyed myself.I don't know why but whenever I was to go on an outing with my bi-dearest..Brother..Don't ask me why I call him 'Bi'..I'm kind of used to it I guess.Okay,whenever I go on an outing with him...People tend to judge us like a couple.The outing just now was just as I expected.The public were staring at both of us..It left us kind of out of place.Well,got to go people..Updates in a week's time maybe..Or longer...

PS:Life got to move on alright..Leaving in the old memories you kept will make you wilt like a flower in a demon's hold..LAME>..

Updates anyone?

2009-06-05T03:38:00.000-07:00

OUH IM BACK..HELLO!

OKAY..THOSE PICTURE I OWE ARE LONG OVERDUED.WELL,HERE IT IS.IT ALL STARTS FROM THE FIRST PHOTO ABOVE THIS TEXTS.CAN YOU GUESS WHO THE TOP PHOTO IS?YEAP..THAT'S ME..THE KID..THE YOUNG MAN,MY ELDEST BROTHER.AM I CUTE?EH,TAK TAHU MALU PUNYA FIDAH...PUJI DIRI SENDIRI..

WELL ALL MY SCHEDULES THAT IS SUPPOSED TO FALL PERFECTLY IN PLACE ACTUALLY FELL OUT OF PLACE AND ITS STILL FALLING OUT OF PLACE...WANT TO KNOW WHY?MY F&N PRACTICAL WAS LIKE F***ING SHIT AND MY COURSEWORK..LETS JUST SAY..ITS BETTER TO JUMP DOWN FROM MOUNT EVEREST.AT LEAST I HAVE EXTRA TIME TO AMEND MY F&N..ITS DUED ON MONDAY.WHATEVER..IF SHE DON'T THINK THAT SENDING VIA EMAIL IS ACCEPTABLE,THEN ITS UP TO HER..I DON'T HAVE A THUMBDRIVE NOR DO I HAVE A PRINTER.I HAVE ONE BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO MAKE IT WORK.THAT'S THE PROBLEM.THE HOUSE CHORES SEEMED TO BE MORE AND MORE.I HAVE TO:

WASH AND HANG THE LAUNDRY OUTSIDE THE HOUSE
SWEEP AND MOP THE FLOOR
TAKE IN AND FOLD THE LAUNDRY

OKAY,MAYBO TO SOME PEOPLE ITS NOT TOO MUCH.TO ME,I WILL HAVE TO BE USED TO IT.NO,THAT'S NOT RIGHT..ITS ALOT BUT I WILL GET USED TO IT.OKAY,I SKIPPED EXTENDED PROGRAMME.WHY?I WAS PUTTING A SWAN VASE UP ONTO A BIG ANTIQUE WARDROBE IN THE LIVING.ONE MINUTE I WAS STARING AT THE SWAN AND THE TOP OF THE WARDROBE AND THE NEXT..THE CEILING...THE POSITIONING OF MY ANKLE WAS ALSO WRONG..MY RIGHT ANKLE WAS BEING SAT ON BY MY BIG BUTT AND WITH MY WEIGHT ON IT..IT COULD HAVE BEEN BROKEN IF I DIDN'T FORCEFULLY REMOVE IT.SO THUS,MY ANKLE WAS LEFT SPRAINED AGAIN.I LOST COUNT OF HOW MANY TIMES I ACTUALLY SPRAINED MY ANKLE OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS.4 TO 5 TIMES I THINK.FIRST SPRAIN HAPPENED WHEN I WAS 9 YEARS OLD.FELL FROM A SWING.FROM THEN I COULDN'T REMEMBER ANY.I GET WHY PEOPLE HATE TAG OTHERS BUT I DON'T GET WHY THE VICTIM'S FRIENDS TRIED TO DEFEND.SO WHAT IF PEOPLE HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY IN THEIR MIND..WE AS OTHER PEOPLE DON'T HAVE ANY RIGHT TO SHUT THEIR MOUTH OR WHAT-SO-EVER.NO OFFENCE TO THE DEFENDERS OUT THERE.IM JUST STATING WHAT IS IN MY MIND.WELL,THE MAKE OVER OF THE HOUSE...PICTURES I MEAN...WILL BE SOON UPLOADED HERE IN MY BLOG.

MY BLOG'S TAGBOARD WILL BE REMOVED.WELL,SINCE NOBODY IS TAGGING,MIGHT AS WELL I REMOVE RIGHT?MAYBE I SHOULD LEAVE IT..I DON'T KNOW LAH..

PS:SPAM ME AS YOU WISH..I DON'T CARE..ITS YOUR OPINION..HOWEVER,IF IT GETS OVER THE TOP,YOU ARE DONE FOR..AKU BASUH,BASUH HABIS-HABISAN..

Updates,,,

2009-05-28T04:59:00.000-07:00

Hey People!!!!
I know I have not been updating for the past feew days.Yeah..I must be such a lazy bum.Yeah right..Too lazy too update..Why?I have been going back and forth from the new house to the old one.Whatever...

Well,for the past few days...I don't really remember what happened but I remembered clearly what had happened yesterday.27 May 2009.F&N practical was uberly exhaustive and it ruined my day.I repeat,RUINED my DAY!!!Guess what,I cooked 'supposingly' for dishes before the invigilator says that my dishes are considered as only 3.Before the practical,I showed her my recipes and she said it was okay but after presenting my dishes,she said it is considered as 3.I was so pissed off when she said that I have to cook 2 more dishes tomorrow,29 May 2009.Just imagine that.I have been busy for the past one month getting my coursework done,packing my stuff into boxes,and for the past 2 weeks before the exam,I am very busy cleaning the new house.Do I look like I have that much time to actually try out the dishes at home.The answer is NOOO!!!Just now became busy by carrying the stuff into the new house.

Yea...Carrying the new stuff.Thus,I didn't go to school.The school I am in...Let metell you people this,The rules suck!!!Okay,I have very bad language.Forgive my crudeness.Whatever...Last night,I messaged Dee to inform that 'precious' form teacher of mine of my absence from school due to the shifting of house.Guess what,thanks to her 'angry' voice,I think,Dee's upset with me.The message that I receive from Dee at 1.45pm:"I meant that she said that such excuses aren't acceptable anymore."I was like what the hell.I told fatin about it and she agrees with that teacher.

Okay,let me ask.The principal set such rules to prevent students from playing truancy.Okay,I think it works.Howevr,shifting house is a good idea of an excuse.I am financially not well so I can't hire people to clean and shift the things can I?That's the first thing.Secondly,what if most of my cousins don't really give a damn about me shifting house and they don't want to help willingly?Thirdly,I HAVE TO SHIFT AND CLEAN THE HOUSE WITH MY MUM AND BROTHER ONLY DAMMIT!!There's only 3 of us.What do you expect?The only people who helped are Abang Boy and Kak Ina.Will that amount of people able to allow me to go to school just now?FYI!!They only come around in the evening.Do I look like I have a choice?I n't think so.Do you people think THAT the rules set are fair towards 'unfortunate' people like me?I don't know.Ugh..Thanks MRS.____!

I have been trying to face my fears of cockroaches but I still failed.My efforts are in vain.Haha...Well,I think I am going to cook lasagne and cheesy spaghetti bolognaise tomorrow...Want or don't want,I still have to do it right.Let's look forward to tomorrow...Once the house is ready,I'll upload the pictures of the before and after of the house's looks..

PS:Why is the world so unfair?It's not like I purposely not want to go to school right?Whatever lah kan.I am tired of it.FYI,I think I may have lost interest in my studies...

Update for the Miss Days

2009-05-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!
Yea..I know..I wasn't considered lazy to update but I was considered as extremely busy.Like the title says...

Wednesday

Nothing much happen.I passed my Social Studies.Not that good but at least its a pass right?Okay whatever.I forgot the timetable for this week.After school,I went straight home.I think that I am one of the few that reached the bustop first.I took 22 and bus-ed to Paya Lebar.I was super exhausted when I reached home.Did some house chores and that's it.

Thursday

I think I spent my time in the library during recess.I didn''t want to go down firstly because of my slightly sprained ankle and secondly because of the huge crowd in the canteen.I think I had Geography and I was super shocked that I pass my exams.I was not that particular of my Goegraphy.I also went home straight after school with Dee,and I reached home in 1 hour or so.Same thing goes.The only thing that is special for the day is that my mum cooked my favourite dish.Leafy Vegetables in White Soup.I really don't know what the dish is called in English so I just named it anyhow.In malay,Gulai Lemak Pucuk Ubi.My favourite.Okay,whatever.

Today,Friday

I was so exhausted from yesterday's new house cleaning.I forgot to mention it.The house was Cockroach filled!!!!My greatest phobia!!!The house is in terrible condition.God knows how they managed to live in it.Well,Abang boy and Kak Ina came over to help scraped the damn weird colour,yellow of the wall.Well,I think I will manage to get rid of the phobia because it's ground floor.It has the main bin beside the door so Cockroaches are bound to appear.EEWW~~~Thus,I skipped school.Of course under my mum's agreement.I woke up at 0845am.Cleaned the room and then started packing the utensils needed to clean the house.I am happy but the scraping of paint had left my right writs slightly painful.However,despite of the tough job,I got to know what is a scraper and what it is used for.I also know how to scrape paint.But!!!!I will never do it again.Tiring.Well,talking about Cockroaches,it's not those black big types.Its those brown small types.Fly-able ones to be exact.Uff!!!There's Cocokroaches in the toilet and in the kitchen cupboard~~Yuck...

Well,no pictures will be uploaded today.Maybe tomorrow.

PS:Maybe I have a split personality..Who knows.I have a quiet character in school but a loud one at home.

Living in the world of lies,betrayal.Whatever it is,I don't think we can trust anyone when we are living in that kind of world.YOU can never be too loyal to a friendship because your friend might just HURT you..Been through it,I know it better!

Upset about results...F&N due...

2009-05-19T00:10:00.000-07:00

Hey people!!!
I don't seem to be energetic during school hours.I was kind of down since I went out of the house at 6.25am.Do you want to know why?Let me explain.I seriously thought that the time table will be as usual.Therefore,I brought my Social Studies Sec 4 textbook,Maths textbook and notebook.Do you know how heavy my bag is?Okay,whatever.When I reach school and my form teacher said that the time table was changed for the week.To my horror,F&N was the first 2 periods directly after silent reading.Just my luck.I thought that I could "run" away from handing the coursework up.My initial plan was to hand the coursework to her tomorrow,Wednesday.Just my luck...

On the other hand,my F&N results was not that very disappointing but my POA and Chemistry was terrifyingly disappointing.Well,I am not gonna hide my results.POA:40.5/100 Chemistry:30/50 F&N:30.5/40 MT:103/140 Eng:53/100

Other than that,the day went smoothly.I spent my time during recess eating with Fatin.In class,I had fun with my sister,Dee.We laughed at our own results."A1 student to C5 student"Okay.I know that's lame.I was absolutely tired when it was MT period.Why?I myself don't know.Well,I took a nap after putting on my earpiece and blasting the music.I was in my own world in less than 5 minutes.POA lesson was slow.I mean very slow.I just thought "I want to get out of school today!Hurry!".Well,frankly speaking,I really don't have any interest in continuing my studies.Despite of my lack of interest,I continue to study and I also tried to get back that interest.I know that education is the source of success.With a solid base,I am sure to be successful in life.Remember my first few posts?The red PS:?I did say that I was stuck in a decision.I thought I made up my mind but I was wrong.The decision became much more complicated.Here is what I am trying to decide.Do I want to continue with my O level or should I end my Secondary education and go for ITE?My mum says that I am at no loss if I go for O level.Why?She said that if I go for it,if I were to fail,at least I have and O level certificate,However,I think that it is a waste of my time to wait for another year before going to ITE.I asked Fatin but her suggestions were "If I prefer theory,Stay...If I prefer practical,ITE...".I do't care which one is which as I can adapt to the ways easily.That didn't help.I asked Dee and she told me to continue with my O level.That was not even helpful.I don't know but I feel like studying is not me but I don't think I have the guts or the heart to break the news to my mum and break her heart at the same time.She told me that I am the only one she can put hope on for a better life in the future...

Well,sorry for the long post but I got to end it here..Got to finish up my F&N first!

PS:I am serious now that I won't care what people think.I will speak what's on my mind.Like or hate it..It's up to you.I am tired of being unable to speak my mind.

Boring but troubled deep inside

2009-05-18T05:48:00.001-07:00

Hey there!
I felt bored just now during the day.One of my relatives passed away so my mum told me to stay home while she attends the funeral.I spent time at home with Bii.Well,I did nothing much the whole day.My day is made up of VCDs/DVDs and the computer.I am currently waiting for the videos at mysoju.com.I finally decided to stop watching Boys Before Flowers.So now,the series I am watching is It Started With a Kiss.It's also a love story but in my opinion,the story itself is cute and certain scenes are sweet.

The troubled part is,I can't print my F&N coursework.The main problem is the date due is on 19 May 2009 which is tomorrow.What an unlucky period I am going through...Somebody SAVE me!Well,I am going to end it here.I got to finish watching this series.

PS:Some people are just jealous but they don't want to show it.What-ever!

Prologue to a new life

2009-05-17T06:59:00.001-07:00

Hi people...like again...
I don't know if the title has a link to this post or not.Maybe it has some links to it to a certain extent.Well,I will be moving house soon.Most probably,by next week,21 May 09...No..I won't be moving on 21 May but my Bro Wan and my mum will be getting the key from it's owners.Then the re-decorating will be done.No,the house will not be renovated for some financial reasons.So,the house will only be re-decorated as in painting and the shifting in of the furniture.I won't be moving far from this curent rental house.However,the sad thing...I won't be living near my dad anymore.I will have to..no..I MUST VISIT him at least twice a week which includes an overnight stay.I am still in the midst of packing the items in the house.Thanks to my idiocy,I packed like 90% of my outing clothes.So I am only left with a few black thights,one blck blouse and one black/white blouse.Yea..As you guys can guess,my wardrobe is made up mainly of black or white clothings.I am looking forward to my new house but it is going to be a very exhaustive period.

Well,nothing really happen today other than the task of packing.My Bro Wan is doing his re-service.He came over just now.He have to have the letter from HDB in order to be released out from the re-service on 21 May o9.I also spend time watching Boys Before Flowers episode 12 - 14.Yesterday was also the premier of the Boys Before Flowers episode 1 - 2.However,the episode 2 was not complete.It should end when she used fabulous clothes and make up.In the cruise or something.Yesterday Kak Ina,my aunt came over with her friend,Abang Boy.Abang Boy helped to take off the ceiling fan and lights.You guys can call him the electrician-hero.Haha...Sorry Abang.I also chatted with Bii...Wait,wait..Bii is not my boyfriend alright.Bii is my precious 2nd brother.I know,calling my brother Bii is rude but I am used to it.Sorry Bii.Ok..Whatever..I'm tired..

PS:People around me always tend to be pretentious...

A rare outing

2009-05-17T02:52:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!
Last Friday was a rare outing for me.Why?Well,frankly speaking..It is rare for me to have this kind of "Golden" opportunity.I am the hide-inside the house type of girl..Sometimes I think that going out often is a waste of money.Well,that outing was the 2nd or 3rd one in this year I must say..Outing with friends of course.Well,I made a last minute decision to go on an outing with Fatin,although the plan was made 2 days before the last paper for me.Since my mum wanted me to buy my concession stamp,might as well,I go out for a movie as a treat for my "hard" work throughout the whole examination period.The plan was for us to watch a movie however we didn't really make up our mind till the last minute.We decided to watch Angels & Demons.Its a cool movie.The phrase "Expect the Unexpected" actually comes true in this movie.Since we made up our mind in the last minutes of 2.30pm.we decided to watch the movie at slot 4.10pm.We got the back seats and boy was it comfortable...but cold.The movie ended at 6.30pm and I was late for sure.Mind you,I have a curfew...If I were to ever break the curfew...I will NEVER be able to enter the house..So I took the MRT back from Pasir Ris interchange to Paya Lebar before boarding bus No. 24.Well,I made it back home in a nick of time.Time:7.33pm.Phew!

Well,whatever it is,I am going to plan my time in the next outing.By the way,did I tell you that the god-damn MRT was kind of slow?Or was it just my anxious feeling?Who cares..

PS:It won't be my first nor my last time wearing that kind of clothes.There are other people who reveals more than they should...

Exam's burden over...but here comes the inevitable...

2009-05-14T05:44:00.000-07:00

Hi people!
Like the title says...I am finally done with the exams...I AM SO happy!I had POA paper 1 just now...Well,it was okay but I don't plan on passing POA because I know my paper 2 got such low marks so I don't expect any miracle to happen what-so-ever for that particular subject.My physics...I totally got nothing to say actually...Same goes for my Geography...English is not that bad...Malay...I'll give it an okay lah...E Maths is kind of better than my other subjects though...She told me that I passed my paper 2 or 1...I can't really remember that clearly...and the paper recently...I think I can pass that one but not with flying colours...My Chemistry...hmm...I think it is way better than Physics as ITS always better than Physics...I think that's all right?

Nu-uh...This is what I am thinking currently...No matter how happy I am about something...There is always something else that is inevitable...This inevitable thing makes me worry...F&N...My coursework is due on 19 May 09...I have to photocopy 3 time plans..I for the file,one for the folder...The other for myself...I was like "what the hell"...The practical is around the corner...I also found out about my marks for my F&N theory exam...I found out from one of the F&N students...Yeap..I am shocked and happy about my marks but I won't really trust the information about it until I really see the paper...(Some people in this world have __________and might not be happy with who we are and what we have...______ the information...HOWEVER!!!I am not implying this to anyone...I am just stating it in general...It's reality...)Oh yes...Talking about F&N practical...I have yet to go shopping for the ingredients to practice at home in order to build up my confidence...Anyone interested to accompany me???Nah...Just kidding...I always go shopping for F&N myself...Well...I'll end it here...I'm off to bed...TIRED...

PS:I think I made my decision...However...I won't be revealing it yet...

Updates for Today

2009-05-13T00:32:00.000-07:00

Hi people!!!
I'm back like again for my second post of the day...Today's paper was E maths paper 2...At first,I was like "yea right" when she said that paper 2 uses more of our thinking skills but what she said actually came true...The paper was hard but not to the extent that it was undo-able...The first 3 qns was alright but out of the whole paper,I thought that qn 5 is extremely hard!I skipped it at first but I finished the paper half an hour before it was due.So I decided to work on it but I am NOT sure if I did it correctly or not.However,what shocked me the most was the qn that states that I must prove an equation.If i am not wrong it was qn 11.I managed to prove the equation in the final minutes of the exam.I hope that I can finally pass my maths this time round because I am sick and tired of always,ALWAYS failing that damn subject.

Well,went home with Fatin just now.Yup...Did nothing but just chatted about things while making our way to the bustop.Fatin,I really pity you but it's for your own good.I know it is supposed to be the last paper tomorrow but you need to continue going to school for another paper until Friday.Whatever it is,good luck and all the best.Jia You!!!!

The bus ride home was quite long.I really felt sleepy along the way.However,I was lucky that I have my precious handphone to entertain myself so as not to feel sleepy.I reached home after buying maggie mee to cook for my precious brother.So now I am blogging before continuing with my K-drama,Boys Before Flowers at mysoju.com...Well,I am going to start revising my POA after 7pm...

PS:I am so in trouble for not taking down the topics for tomorrow's paper.
DECISION,DECISION,DECISION

Updates about yesterday

2009-05-12T20:55:00.000-07:00

Hola!!!!
As the title goes...Yesterday's paper was okay but my Qn 7 ( there was a question 7 right...uh...who cares ),I don't think my last qn will be marked.It a cross out for me...By the way,it was chemistry paper yesterday.Most of the qns were last years topics so I was going "What the hell""How should I know""I am so dead" like for the whole paper.Well,I only focused more on Sec 4 topics and didn't really paid much attention to my Sec 3 topics.So I might as well not think about it.

I also did my blog.Reverted to the old classic template in order to use the blogskins that I found quite interesting at blogskin.com.Yup,did some adjustments et cetera.Well,I don't know why I chose this skin but I think it goes with the blog's url...That's what I think.The song...Yea I know it's an old song but I missed this song...I got the music from the iwebmusic.com...Troublesome but they have tonnes of different song...This is for my dear friend Fatin...That is if your are on the net today and bloghopping...

1.You revert to old template...There's an icon that enables you to that.
2.Then,you choose the template that you want at blogskin.com
3.Make sure...you SAVE a copy of the format of the skin you chose.
4.You then add it on your blog...
5.Then,the rest you ask someone who knows how to do blogs...It's very complicated for me to explain to you on how to do it...

Well,got to go...I got to update about today...Later....

PS:Yea..I am stuck on the big decision that I think it may stay with me until I end my N levels...Sian...

Satisfied

2009-05-12T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!
As you can see...my blog's done...The new format is troublesome but figured it out with the help of my precious brother...Thanks...Will link you soon.Well,basically,you will have to change the new format back to the old one...From layout to template...There will be a icon which stated "Revert to Classic Template".Then you can use what ever skin you like...Well,I like this skin so I use it...

Well whatever it is,I added a tagboard already so if you guys anything to say,feel free to do so at the tagboard.Spammers are also welcome...One things for sure,I don't entertain what you spammers say cause its ur opinion.I don't give a damn bout it...F&n is still not done and that I am still studying for tomorrow's Higher Order skills Maths paper 2...Well,I am done for now..Got to study for maths paper 2.Updates will be done tomorrow...Ciao...

P.S:I passed my maths paper 1 but got to gdo better for paper 2.Jia You!!

:::I am stuck in this big decision...

Trouble...

2009-05-09T01:53:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps!Yeap as the title says...I am in trouble...F&n is still not in yet...This is going to be short post...I still have not amended my F&n yet...Its not that I don't want to do it but I will have to re-type everything in 'Planning' if I were to amend it.Well,basically,it is Vesak Day today and guess what,I don't have anything fun to do or what-so-ever this afternoon.Other then the trouble hogging my mind the whole time,I spend my time watching the Boys Before Flowers new Korean Drama.Yeap...Although I have been watching it over and over again,I can't seem to get over the drama...

P.S:You guys got to watch the dram.It starts on 16 may 09 at 9.15pm..It 2 episodes per night...

:::Without moving on,you'll be left behind

Another Day of Distractions

2009-05-08T02:08:00.000-07:00

Hey Peeps!As the they title says,"another day of distractions".When you got a passion for something,you'll enjoy doing it.F&N MYE paper was hell for me.I thought I got everything on my finger tips but HELL NO!True,true.I studied before the paper alright but everything just goes blank the moment I started checking the paper for any mistakes.It happens.I think there was one question that I actually had trouble answering although some of the f&n peeps might thnk it is easy.It goes like this "give advice and reason for the choice of fat for short crust pastry."I was like,how would I know.I know what short crust pastry is but how to make it?Nu-uh...Well,there will be more days ahead which will burst my brains."Higher order thinking skills for E Maths 2?"I am so going to pass out on that.

F&n still needs amendments.I won't be doing it for now.Maybe tomorrow and send it to her via mail.Well,just started doing a blog today.I can't seem to let out anywhere else...so...here I am.Blogskin will be done soon enough.Yeap..I'll end it here...From the looks of it,my results will be going down hill.A1 to B3...Got to go...Mum's going to go chuckoo if I don't stop now...

p.s:Life got to move on...You'll be stranded if you don't..

Silent Distractions

Another day in School

New Skin..

Left downhearted...Again

Hari Raya!

Depression persists!

Dying of Boredom!!!

'N'lvl's unbearable burden

Panicking

Calm waters----Tsunami beneath...

Moderation Persists...

Exhaustive periods....

Troubles far away****Enjoying life to the fullest...

To hell I'll go...

Doomed...

Bored to death....

Troubles behind~~~New burdens to come

Ending off on a good note...8)

Rush of Adrenaline

Busy,busy...

Troubles...

Prelims

***No SCHOOL***

Stressful life is only a start to a big change...

Confused...

Start afresh...

Dusty Blog

Dead life?Who knows..

Unhappy day ahead

Unhappy day ahead

New Skin's up..Update for the month..

Updates anyone?

Updates,,,

Update for the Miss Days

Upset about results...F&N due...

Boring but troubled deep inside

Prologue to a new life

A rare outing

Exam's burden over...but here comes the inevitable...

Updates for Today

Updates about yesterday

Satisfied

Trouble...

Another Day of Distractions

No SCHOOL